Lisa,
I am one that always hold things inside and never let it out. It is still surreal to me that you are not here. To be honest I can not talk to no one the way that you and I would talk. I am now in Italy and I think that I refuse to make friends or even talk to many people because I am afraid that they may leave me. It still hurts and it hurts bad. We had a special bond and although we were far away you were always near and dear to my heart and you will forever be. I checked my email today and you are still in my birthday reminder and I just broke down because I can not tell you personally Happy Birthday and it hurts. You are still forever young. One day I will face my feelings but until then Happy Birthday friend. I miss you SO MUCH!!!
On January 2, 2008, 7:15 a.m., Ky'Shawn Jamier Manuel, your great-nephew, was introduced to the world. He is such a fine baby, sis. I really wish you were here to meet his little acquaintence, but you can count on me to enlighten him all about his great-aunt. There are so many things to share!
, Tina
Lisa...I miss you so much!...I miss our talks!!
Hey lisa it's me Torie I miss u so much I miss talking to u...I need my friend right now...I know ur here in spirit but I wish I could hear ur voice so we could talk about men of course and they stupidity. I think I might of found the right one but I don't know he's saying he wants the same things I want but he actions are different he's 28yr old dark skin bald-headed but I don't know and u know how we women have our gut instinct mine instincts was kicking in so i decided to call his phone this morning voicemail picks up and mind u I ride pass his house everyday but something told me to go by there today so I did and no car so I automatic assume but i had ask God to reveal to me and look what he showed me...so I'm like ok but not to upset but couldnt wait to talk to him so I did this morning and of course he came with something about a game and didn't want to be bothered with others I'm like whatever so now he wants to be friends I told him no if we not in relationship then I don't want it so he said kool we not friends but I told him last if he gives up so easy then maybe it wasnt meant to be in first place and that feeling were not mutual so he didnt respond back to that so I'm like did I mess things up or I got what I ask for but it hurts so bad...you and I both know about being single and being with worthless people you know we both said when we going to get our time. Omg!! Lisa I wish u were here I really do like him but I guess the question is does he really like me and does he want what I want? And yes Im impatient Im a want it now person and he's not he's like go with flow type and I'm like lets do it u know...I trusted him thinking that I found a man of god, a spiritual man that is walking straight but he's not..it never fails.. And then its so easy not to be bothered with the ones u dont want want and hard not to call the one u do like... I know your in a better place and your sitting there laughing like I dont have to go through the woes of dating cause you know its a trip.. I feel a lil bit better writing and talking to you until next time...I love ya!!! Torie
Lisa, it's been a year..."God is always with us-in our joy and in our pain, in the good times and in the bad times. His steadfast love and faithfulness are promises to which we can cling, promises to bring us joy when we face loneliness". I love and miss u!!
